This is a statement that I’ll be posting here, so that I’ll stick to it.
No longer am I going deprive myself of food, no longer am I going to stress over counting every calorie of what I eat. Depriving myself of food when I’m hungry only makes me crave more food and I only end up eating too much later on.
I can say that I HAD an eating disorder. HAD.
I want to be REALLY healthy. So I’m gonna be doing it THE RIGHT WAY. I’m going to eat intuitively, meaning I’ll eat only when I’m really hungry and also eat when the family eats (given that I’m hungry). Enjoy a treat every once in a while and eat intuitively on special occasions. Exercise and be active everyday (surprisingly, I find that easy). I won’t miss out in life anymore. I’m gonna enjoy life and LIVE LIFE.
Why is everything about me wrong?!
Why is my life is so fucked up?!
Why can’t I be TRULY happy?!
Why is my life a big fucking joke?!
WHY AM I STILL HERE?!